I didn't go to school for almost a year before because I was sick, and now I'm in my first year of high school. I used to be isolated from my classmates at school, I didn't have many friends, and I was under a lot of pressure for the midterm exams, so all I knew then was that I had to study and do well. My mom (my dad died early) enrolled me in a cram school, and I studied hard that year and finally got into high school.
The teachers at the cram school were very responsible, but also very strict, and the pressure was especially high in there, which made me become especially strong. When I went to high school, I took a break from school because I had a headache, and at first I was still studying on my own at home, but slowly I got scared, I couldn't learn things, I didn't have any friends, and I was especially anxious about the future. Then I went to the cram school before, but I was scared when I saw the teacher, the teacher let me study on my own, but I couldn't learn, I always felt that the teacher looked down on me (the teacher used to think highly of me because I learned things fast), maybe I thought too much about myself. I'm so afraid of the future, I feel that I can't learn anything now, and I'm slowly losing my pride and becoming very inferior. My mom always says I'm not as good as I used to be and scolds me, but I know she's doing it for my own good. I think it's all my fault, and I'm so scared that I can't take the step to go to school, but in my heart I'm longing to go to school. But I am afraid that I won't have any friends after I go to school, and I will be looked down upon and scorned by others.
Hello dear sister/brother:
You are now a senior in high school, only fifteen or sixteen years old, it is a young and beautiful age, the road of life is still long, so first of all, you have to be on your own.
