I find that I always love to lie to my mom, especially about small things that are not necessary, but I can't help it. For example, just now when she asked me what I had eaten, I blurted out that I had instant noodles, but it was actually spicy hot pot, just because I was afraid that she would say that I was spending money recklessly or nagging me all the time.
Every time I lied, I felt weak, and my mom often noticed it, saying that I even lied to my own mother, and that I would definitely suffer in the future if I interacted with outsiders. But other people won't mock or question me like she does, and I know it's not right, but I just can't change it, and I'm a little afraid of her.
Hello.
You say you are used to lying to your mom, mainly because you are afraid of her nagging or criticizing you. When mom asks questions, your self-protection mechanism kicks in and lying becomes a way to escape from unpleasantness.
You find it easy to lie about even the smallest things, and it's become an automatic reaction that makes you worry if there's something wrong with you. In fact, you just don't want to deal with your mom's negativity.
You feel guilty when your mom accuses you of lying, but understand why: telling the truth to others doesn't bring as much pressure.
You're afraid of your mom and want to avoid her negativity and accusations, a difficult emotion to deal with somehow.
Perhaps by growing mentally and slowly communicating your concerns and fears to mom. Mom may adjust her ways out of love. Try responding to her questions with honesty when you're not so afraid anymore.
