Recently, I always feel excluded by my roommates, and this exclusion is getting more and more serious, and the feeling of depression in my heart is also getting more and more serious.
Every day I feel especially angry, I feel disrespected by my roommates, I can't take the jokes they make, and I always feel like I'm being hung out to dry. Sometimes I want to talk about it but I'm afraid of hurting the situation, and now this emotion is getting worse and the depression is becoming heavier.
First of all, I'm not quite sure exactly what kind of jokes your roommate is making.
If they make jokes that offend you, then I think they may be provoking you. But if you just roll your eyes, they might join forces to bully you, which is always bad for you. However, you could try to taunt them back with similar jokes about each other. Then suddenly get angry in the process, so that the other person gets angry too, and then you can say, "See, that's how I feel when you guys usually make jokes at my expense!" This way they may find you baffling, but should make fewer such jokes in the future. However, you may be in a state of cold violence. If you're in the way and don't want to take the initiative to make peace, then don't do it yet. But think about the fact that we're all going to be living in the same dormitory for years to come, and you can lend a hand when they need help, then apologize and have dinner together. You might be thinking, "It's not my fault, why should I apologize?" But you have to realize that roommates don't see each other's heads, and it's not good for your mood to be upset all day long, so having fun is the most important thing, right?
If your roommate makes jokes that you can't understand and therefore get angry, then I suggest you try to understand. It's like having different laughs, what you don't find funny, someone else might find funny. Of course, jokes and punchlines are not the same thing, I'm just using an analogy. You need to be more understanding and tolerant, otherwise it will be hard to solve similar problems in the future. It's their business if others can't understand, so why bother yourself!
