There is no great misfortune in life, and I can barely get by, but I just can't feel happy, how to balance the reality and the virtual world?
I'm 32 years old and married, but it's not exactly a happy marriage. My first love was an online relationship that ended in failure, when I accepted a blind date arranged by my family almost indifferently, and then got married and had children.
I don't argue with anyone in my in-laws' family because I really don't feel the need to weigh in.
I super love to play games, in the game I play a girl, poor skills but have fun, nice and gentle voice, a lot of people are willing to take care of me, I also like the feeling of being treated as a child, although I know in my heart that I'm not a child anymore.
That's why I never hung up on CP relationships, occasionally I'd have a bit of a fling, and if someone liked me, I'd take the initiative to end the relationship and then feel bad for myself because I'd actually moved on.
Know that's not good.
Kind of like mental cheating.
But whenever it feels wrong, I tell myself again that it's my personal freedom and I'm an individual.
I'm probably nicer to strangers than I am to my relatives, taking an interest in their lives, jobs, and emotions, but not to my family.
Parent-wise, I give them what I can, and I listen when they say so;
For my husband, it's pretty much the same with or without him anyway;
As for the child, as long as he is healthy and alive;
I don't ask much of them.
Life is not unfortunate, I can still live, I'm just not happy, and I'm quite happy in the virtual world, albeit briefly. I'm often confused, sometimes I feel like I have two selves, although I know it's an escape from reality.
Hi, after reading your description, I'm particularly interested in:
🍀 You say you're not happy, can you be more specific about what you think "happy" looks like?
Can you describe it accurately?
For example, what kind of life makes you feel happy? What kind of marriage makes you feel happy?
🍀 Can you elaborate:
What is the gap between the unhappiness you feel now and the "happiness" you want?
How does your current marriage, the way you treat your husband and children, differ from your ideal of a "happy" marriage?
🍀 If I were to feel your description, I'd say it's "calm days", but your heart may be yearning for "passion".
Maybe it's because we didn't experience a great love before marriage.
Maybe you've repressed your desire for love and passion.
Maybe it's your upbringing that makes you unconsciously dismiss these ideas that
Or some other reason.
🍀 I can see you are a more traditionally thinking woman.
Please become more aware of what's really going on inside you, and then take the initiative to find love and be loved in your marriage, to create little surprises in your life, and to turn your outward pursuits to digging inside your family.
wish you all the best! (when signing off on a correspondence)
