My boyfriend said he had a work dinner today, but I waited until midnight and he didn't reply to any of my messages, tweets or phone calls. This situation has occurred two or three times, and each time he said he was drunk to go home and fall asleep, but also promised to change in the future, will tell me in advance, but it is always just talk. As time goes by, my sense of security is getting worse and worse.
The potlucks he attends have become more frequent, and I actually don't mind that, what I do care about is that he never lets me have a clear picture of his daily life.
Both of us are in the field to work hard, each busy, life has a lot of frustration. His health is not very good, and his temper is quick, so I don't dare to say a lot of things in my heart, and I feel especially tired.
When I close my eyes, I can't help but think about self-harm or even suicide, my mind is empty and I feel like there's no point in living.
Hello, from your description can feel the strong anxiety, long-distance relationship so that you can not grasp his whereabouts, the heart of the seven up and down, the lack of security makes you physically and mentally exhausted, and even the idea of light life.
It's true that long distance relationships aren't easy, think back, what moments or things in the relationship made you feel sweet? And what situations made you miserable? Can this pain be alleviated by changing external factors? If so, what exactly should you do?
If it's so hard, what's keeping you in this relationship? Why don't you calmly think about what the future holds for you if you stay together? And what does it mean to you if you separate? If you can't figure it out by yourself, we suggest you talk to a professional counselor. Take care!
